A week of ‘should have beens’

Firstly, I want to announce the winner of my quiz. The lucky winner gained a score of 22/30 and will receive a book about the maritime origins of everyday expressions, which is currently wending it’s way to them on the Isle of Wight. Congratulations Lenka!

In many ways it feels very apt that Lenka should win the quiz as I went to visit her on the Isle of Wight straight from my initial Clipper application interview in Gosport in September 2017. We sat up till very late drinking too much wine and binge watching previous editions of the race on DVD, because Lenka also shares my passion for boats and the sea, having been a member of Ocean Youth Club (as it was called) back in the day. We were both enthralled by the exhilarating footage of huge seas and exposure to storms at night. Lenka mused that were she not a mum, then she too would like to sign up to the race, but then both agreed she is blessed to share her life with her special daughter. So happy reading Lenka and thank you to all of you who took the trouble to submit your quiz answers.

This week has been an especially difficult one emotionally for me as every day of my diary has had an entry for a Clipper race-related commitment at Seattle’s Bell Harbour marina; be it a refresher sail, crew registration, onboard crew brief with my team mates and Skipper and today…Well today, I would have hugged my husband for the last time from the pontoon that Punta del Este was moored to and stepped aboard at 11am in order to be ready for slipping the mooring lines for a ceremony at noon and parade of sail. This is a marker at the start of each race, which I have avidly watched via Facebook live for all the previous legs. Dave and I were going to take off our wedding rings and replace them with symbolic silicone ones (so that I reduced my chances of a nasty injury whilst using the winches over the coming months!). He’d also written me a song in honour of this moment called ‘Sailing Free’. So today, instead of stepping aboard Punta del Este and separating for 3.5 months in Seattle, we are very much together reflecting on a few ‘should have beens’ at home. We decided to mark this day by Dave performing his song on camera. I hope you enjoy the song (it has a catchy chorus to sing-a-long with).

My husband performing this song he’d written to mark the eve of my part in the Clipper race 2019-20. Performed at home in Bristol, England, on the day and hour we were meant to be saying our last goodbye to each other on a pontoon in Seattle before I embarked Punta del Este for Legs 7 & 8 of the race.

Even if I can’t physically be on the ocean tonight, I shall be imaginatively transported there. It’s canny timing (again) that at 6pm GMT tonight, Sarah Outen is giving a free online talk about her experience of 500 days alone ocean rowing. Given that Sarah’s books about her cycling, kayaking and rowing adventures inspired me to re-apply to Clipper in 2017, I can’t help but think it is very apt she’s giving this lecture tonight; marking what would have been my first night on the Pacific ocean aboard Punta del Este. So if you’d like to hear her talk too, then you can watch it here.

Tomorrow is a new day and also a new chapter in the Changing Tack adventure story. Until the close of today I have been living my life in lockdown in full knowledge of many ‘should haves’, but as of tomorrow, there are none. My diary is empty for the rest of 2020, because I was to be offshore. Off air. Beyond reach. Jumping off into a huge unknown, trusting that it would all be OK and things would work out one way or another. I had no plans beyond returning from the race safe and sound in around 60 days time into the embrace of my husband. So it’ll be quite a relief tomorrow to finally wake up to a new chapter where my life at home under lockdown finally matches what the experience of crewing in the race would have demanded; to just try to go with the flow in the face of great unknowns, make the most of each moment for what it is or brings and know that there will be great challenges ahead, but also beautiful moments too. I think that’s what life in lockdown asks of us all too.

If you’ve been reading my blog, thank you for being part of the journey and contributing to the story as it unfolded. Remember that whatever circumstances you find yourself in right now, an adventure awaits. Take care. Stay safe. Be strong.

I received this beautiful pin badge through the post yesterday from a good friend and work colleague who wanted to remind me that although “the world and their plans have been utterly turned on their head, I’m sending you this to remind you that good times are ahead…It’s a reminder that the world will continue after this pandemic and who knows where you’ll be and what you will do. Life is for living.”

The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter.

Izaak Walton.


I type this as 2019 has gone from being on my horizon to now being well and truly here! It’s the second week of January, mid-winter has now past, so we can all begin to anticipate the arrival of spring and lighter, warmer days to come. But I am also anticipating what 2019 will actually entail for me. At times it can feel quite overwhelming and sometimes very unreal, but I sense that very soon, it is all going to become VERY real.

Dave and I will head to Lord’s cricket ground (he’s very excited about that!) for our first official Clipper Race event on Saturday 19th January; an all-day Crew Brief where crew in the 2019-20 race will gather with their significant others (Crew Supporters) in much anticipation and excitement. All crew in attendance will get their photograph taken for the Clipper website and get the chance to meet each other… Who knows, we might even find out when exactly the race is due to start this year and from which UK port! There is much speculation among those crew I have already trained with during my Level 1 and Level 2 training weeks in 2018, but only time will tell who won the bet!

At this stage, all I do know for sure is that I am halfway through my Clipper Race training and set to crew in the last two legs of the race, which will take place in Spring/Summer 2020:

Leg 7

West Coast USA to East Coast USA (via the Panama Canal)

Leg 8

East Coast USA to Race Finish at a port in the UK

At this stage in the countdown to ‘Race Start’, Clipper are keeping very quiet as to which port cities of the world my two legs will encompass.

When I first applied for the Clipper Race back in 2017, my ambition had been to crew in the entire race as a Circumnavigator (or RTW’er – “Round the Worlder” – in Clipper Crew parlance), but my medical consultants soon put a stop to that dream (that’s another blog post for another day!).

So here I am, letting the reality of my part as “a legger” sink in and occasionally being amazed I’ve got this far at all!